Every Sunday (hopefully) I shall be posting a personal post about my massive new venture. I am going to University to train to be a primary school teacher. I will be trained to work with 5-11 year olds. It’s known to be a very, very stressful time so I’m hoping I can channel my thoughts and feelings into a blog post. It gives you an insight into what’s going on in my life and hopefully it’ll be incredibly therapeutic for me. I will NOT be naming any children, schools or teaching staff. I won’t even mention what University I’m at. I hope that’s understandable. If personal posts aren’t your thing then feel free to skip these posts. I won’t mind!
I don’t even know where to begin with this week. I feel like I’ve had a massive confidence crisis. There’s no reason to really. The logical part of me knows that I’ve passed my course with a high grading and my observations and teaching are going well. To be honest, I think it’s the lack of job. My anxiety is rearing its ugly head, affecting me badly this week.
I had one interview this week as the others were rescheduled. I got down to the final two candidates, but in the end they went for the other candidate. They took over 5 hours to decide and during my feedback, they told me I had did nothing wrong at all, and it was hard to give feedback when there was nothing negative to feedback. It’s reassuring, but my anxiety aliens worry that I won’t get a job.
I have prospects though. I’ve still got schools coming up. I just want something soon so I can relax more and get ready for the next stage of my career.
Teaching itself, has been fun this week. I really adore the class I’m with and I am going to miss them SO much when I finish in just under 2 weeks. I need to start thinking about how I’m going to show my family appreciation for putting up with me over these past 9 months. It’s been a tough 9 months for us all! 😀
I am planning on writing some tips/tricks posts after I finish as I know a lot of people about to embark on this crazy journey of teacher training are reading my blog. 🙂