Mental Health Awareness Week- My Experience With Anxiety

This week it is mental health awareness week. A subject very close to my heart. I thought I’d step outside my comfort zone and talk about my battle with mental illness.

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I have suffered with anxiety for as long as I can remember. I think I had a less severe form of it as a young child. It’s certainly something that has been with me for as long as I can remember. It got to the point several years ago, where I would rarely leave the house because I was worried something bad would happen.

I’ve only been teaching for 4 years because my anxiety held me back. Don’t get me wrong, I still have massive anxiety issues when it comes to my teaching. I doubt myself constantly and I can be physically sick when under huge pressure (parents evening is a massive trigger for me!) I decided that my anxiety wouldn’t win. Teaching was a dream for me and I think I’m born to teach. It’s a job that has to be loved. I truly believe it’s my purpose.

So how did I tackle my anxiety? I finally realised I couldn’t deal with it myself. I’ve become more open to talking about it to my family, friends and colleagues. I started medication to help me deal with it. It doesn’t always work, but it takes the edge off and I’ve only had 2 major panic attacks since teaching (and that’s huge for me!) I’m trying to deal with my negative thoughts about my capabilities as a teacher and to be honest, my personal post documenting my week as a teacher (Sunday post) is a fabulous outlet for me. I find it incredibly therapeutic. The support I’ve had from others on this post blows my mind.

I also love reaching into mental health representation in books whenever I can. I keep a log of my favourites, easily accessible on my blog for recommendations for others. Representation and discussion is key in my eyes.

I won’t let anxiety win. There’s no shame in having a mental illness. There’s no shame in taking medication to help you.  It needs to be spoken about so people know they’re not alone. People with anxiety can achieve their dreams. You need to find that inner strength.

Thank you for reading!

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29 thoughts on “Mental Health Awareness Week- My Experience With Anxiety

  1. Thank you so much for this post, Chrissi! Oh, I can so relate to this. I think you are doing an amazing job. Teaching is stressful, but add an anxiety disorder and it can become impossible. But not for you. You are strong, dear warrior, and you make it work, and you inspire me.

  2. Ahhh little sister thank you for being so brave and sharing this. I’m sure you’ve helped lots of other people in the process! Always here for you. 😘😘😘

  3. I’m so glad things have gotten a bit better for you. Like you, I think I’ve had it mildly since I was young, but it got bad over 10 years ago. I’m now on medication and it helps a lot. But not with everything. Thank you for sharing this.

  4. Thank you for this post; this is such an inspiration! I admire you for your strength and you are not alone. ❤ While I 'only' suffer from mild anxiety myself (mostly related to answering phones/messages and human interaction in general; I've had it since I can remember) and I can mostly disguise it so only those who really know me notice, I can only imagine how multiplying that anxiety would feel… I admire you for fighting it and being able to follow your dream and teach. ❤

  5. Thank you for sharing, Chrissi ❤ I am glad that the teaching posts have been helping. You are such a wonderful teacher and I admire your commitment and love for your students x

    • I’d highly recommend speaking out when you can. It doesn’t hurt to share your worries and certainly, if you felt it helped in the past then I’d go for it. Thank you for your lovely comment! ❤

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