The Way I Used To Be

How did I get it?:
I bought it!


Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn’t change who she was. But the night her brother’s best friend rapes her, Eden’s world capsizes.

What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved—who she once loved—she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she’s supposed to tell someone what happened but she can’t. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.


I went into this book totally knowing that it wasn’t going to be an easy read. It really wasn’t an easy read, the subject matter is incredibly tough. It’s a book that isn’t perfect. There are some moments within it that I can imagine people really disliking, however, The Way I Used To Be had me gripped right from the beginning. I couldn’t stop turning the pages, eager to find out what was going to happen to Eden.

Readers can tell from the synopsis of this book that it involves a violent rape of a fourteen year old girl. Eden is raped by her brother’s best friend and is warned to keep things quiet. As the story opens, the rape occurs. There’s no holding back or build up. Right away, the reader experiences such an awful attack on Eden. The rest of the book deals with the aftermath, where Eden completely changes who she was because of the terrible incident. Eden doesn’t deal with the situation well (Who would?!) and throughout the rest of Eden’s high school experience, the reader sees Eden’s life spiral out of control.

It was really sad to see Eden struggle with what had happened to her. She wasn’t kind to herself, the reader can certainly tell she hates herself. Eden becomes promiscuous as she completely internalises what had happened to her. Even though the reader didn’t know Eden before the attack, it’s clear that she’s far from what she used to be.

There were so many unanswered questions, but certainly things to think about from reading this book. The story is negative event after negative event but I do think there is a glimmer of hope in there for Eden.

I would definitely give a trigger warning about this sensitive subject. Amber Smith writes with raw honesty, so I would be cautious when approaching this read!

Would I recommend it?:
Of course!

A raw encounter of a girl’s life after an awful incident! A brilliant debut!

Stacking The Shelves #139- Small but satisfying haul!

Stacking The Shelves is all about sharing the books you’re adding to your shelves, be it buying or borrowing. From ‘real’ books you’ve purchased, a book you’ve borrowed, a book you’ve been given or an e-book they can all be shared!

As ever, click on the book image to get to the Goodreads page!


Walk the Edge (Thunder Road, #2)

I am really excited to read the nexr book in the Thunder Road series. I find Katie McGarry’s writing incredibly addictive. Hopefully I’ll find time to read it soon!

The Way I Used to Be

I have had this debut novel on my radar for quite some time now. I have heard such good things. It sounds like it’s going to be a tough read as it has heavy subject matter.

What have you added to your shelves this week? Feel free to leave a link to your post!

Top Ten 2016 Debuts Novels I Am Looking Forward To

Top Ten Tuesday is hosted by the wonderful The Broke and The Bookish. This week’s list are the Top Ten 2016 Debut Novels that we are looking forward to. I always have a love/hate relationship with these lists as my TBR always expands without fail. However, I am ALWAYS excited about debut novels. Who knows, there could be a new favourite auto buy author lurking within this list!

This Is Where It Ends- Marieke Nijkamp

This Is Where It Ends

This book is a bit of a cheat because I’m reading it very soon, but I want people to have it on their radar!

Fear The Drowning Deep- Sarah Glenn Marsh

Fear the Drowning Deep

This sounds fascinating! Historical fiction, paranormal and fantasy. I’m intrigued!

Into The Dim- Janet.B Taylor

Into the Dim

I really like this sound of this science-fiction/time travel story!

These Vicious Masks- Tarun Shanker and Kelly Zekas

These Vicious Masks

I have to say Jane Austen meets X-Men intrigues me.

Underwater- Marisa Reichardt


This book sounds like a great YA psychological read!

The Love That Split The World- Emily Henry

The Love That Split the World

This cover immediately intrigued me. It looks like a fabulous fantasy read!

Symptoms Of Being Human- Jeff Garvin

Symptoms of Being Human

I’ve heard a lot of good things about this book already! So intrigued!

Bookishly Ever After- Isabel Banderia

Bookishly Ever After

Yes, this title totally got me straight away. It’s a paranormal read. I’m intrigued!

The Way I Used To Be- Amber Smith

The Way I Used to Be

This book has been compared to Laurie Halse Anderson’s Speak. I’m intrigued!

Save Me, Kurt Cobain- Jenny Manzer

Save Me, Kurt Cobain

LOVE the title of this book and again… intrigued by the synopsis! Can’t wait to check this out.

What debuts are you looking forward to? Let me know! Feel free to leave a link to your post and I’ll stop by.