Before I Let Go

Before I Let Go

How did I get it?:
I bought it!

Previously reviewed by the same author:
This Is Where It Ends


Best friends Corey and Kyra were inseparable in their snow-covered town of Lost Creek, Alaska. When Corey moves away, she makes Kyra promise to stay strong during the long, dark winter, and wait for her return.

Just days before Corey is to return home to visit, Kyra dies. Corey is devastated―and confused. The entire Lost community speaks in hushed tones about the town’s lost daughter, saying her death was meant to be. And they push Corey away like she’s a stranger.

Corey knows something is wrong. With every hour, her suspicion grows. Lost is keeping secrets―chilling secrets. But piecing together the truth about what happened to her best friend may prove as difficult as lighting the sky in an Alaskan winter…


I really enjoyed Marieke’s debut novel, so I was excited to give Before I Let Go a try. I had heard very mixed reviews about this book- so I’ve somewhat taken my time with getting around to it. However, like always, I always give a book a good go and that’s what I did with this one. There were things that I absolutely loved about it, however, I did get confused at points which is why this book wasn’t rated a 4 star read for me.

Before I Let Go is centred in Lost Creek, which is an isolated community in Alaska. The story follows Corey and Kyra’s friendship. Corey and Kyra used to be really close until Corey moved away. Corey goes back to Lost Creek and finds herself an outcast. Kyra had some troubles and died a tragic death. Corey feels like she’s the only one that remembers what Kyra was like. Despite the community being cold towards her, Corey is determined to find out answers.

There’s no denying that Marieke Nijkamp is a fantastic writer. There’s something about her writing that completely pulls me in and keeps me captivated. Lost Creek is certainly a well written, creepy setting and I was desperate to find out more about it. I also really enjoyed the friendship between Corey and Kyra. It was clear that they really did care for one another. I am all for the representation of mental health as well. I don’t have much knowledge of bipolar disorder but I feel, from what I know, it was an accurate representation.

The reason why I dropped this book half a star is because I felt the plot didn’t immerse me enough. I kept on reading because the writing was simply beautiful. However, I didn’t care for what was going on and I kept searching for something to really grip me or shock me. Perhaps, the beauty of this book lies in the fact that it doesn’t have a complex plot.

I would definitely read more from Marieke. She’s a super talented writer, this plot just didn’t work entirely for me, however, I can imagine many would love it!

Would I recommend it?:
Yes! 3.5 stars

A decent read. Marieke is a great writer, I just wasn’t blown away by the story itself!