I haven’t been posting daily for the last week or so. I’m in a bit of a funk with blogging at the moment. I still absolutely adore it, but after 6 years of posting daily (I’ve only ever missed a few days in those 6 years) I’m getting a bit… not fed up, but uninspired. I’ve made the decision to blog when I want to blog. I’ve finished a book recently and not reviewed it and usually that would bug me, but why should it? Why can’t I just blog when I want to blog? The answer is… I can! It’s up to me when I blog. If my views go down… does it really affect my life? No. It’s taken me a long time to get to this point, but I’m pleased I’m there. It takes the pressure off reading. That review will still be coming out but when I’m in the mood to write it.
The fact is, balancing full time teaching and full time blogging is HARD. I don’t know how I’ve managed it. I’ve had a really stressful year with work and worrying about my blog didn’t really help my mental health. I’ve been honest about my struggles with anxiety and something has to give until I’m in a happier place mentally. Work is massively affecting my mental health and I don’t need blog stress to add to it.
I will still be visiting your blogs, but it might be during a binge reading session. I can’t come online daily and be on WordPress and not blog (I feel guilty!) so I’ll probably read your posts when I’m online. I still support and love my blogging friends.
This isn’t a post saying I’m giving up blogging. I’m not. I’ll just blog when I want to and read when I want to. My blog, my rules!
I adore book blogging. I really do. I’ve ran another blog for four years now on a different subject, but nothing quite compares to my book blog. I’ve been running Chrissi Reads for a year now (today actually, happy blogoversary to me!) and I’ve read several blogs about book blogging pressures, and I thought to myself ‘I’ve NEVER felt that.’ But over the last week I began to feel some sort of pressure. I’ll try to explain…
There’s been two instances recently when I have been reading a book out of a series that’s really quite popular and I just wasn’t enjoying it. I found myself beginning to skim read or rush it, barely taking it in, because I was aware that so many of my blogging contemporaries really loved it, so I thought I must be missing something. Then it suddenly dawned on me, that before book blogging, if I wasn’t enjoying a book, I’d simply give it up. So that’s what I did. I couldn’t believe that I was trying to force myself to like something because I knew a lot of others did. That’s just pointless. There are thousands of books out there for me to enjoy, and not enough time to enjoy them, so why waste my reading time on something that I’m not enjoying, just because others did!?
It got me to thinking about other book blogging pressures. I don’t think people realise how demanding book blogging can be. Most of that pressure does come from the owner of the blog. I know I like to keep my blog consistent, with a mix of content, from newer books to old gems. I like to take part in memes and interact with my readers. I know I should comment more on other blogs, which is something I hope to do next year. Blogging has moved from feeling like a hobby to feeling like another job. I’ve certainly taken a step back this week, when I battled with myself to finish a book I didn’t like, and reminded myself that book blogging is a hobby. Reading is one of my passions and I shouldn’t have to force myself to read something I don’t like.
Now, I don’t mean this to sound so negative. I hope it doesn’t come across that way. Blogging is fun. I love it and I have no intentions of stopping. I’ve met some amazing people and I’ve discovered new authors and new genres that I wouldn’t have found before my book blog. I’m forever grateful for that.
I guess I just needed to remind myself how much I love reading, and not to feel pressured into reading what’s popular if I’m not enjoying it. It’s okay to give up on a book. I’ll never publish reviews of books I didn’t finish and I’m okay with that. I just need to bring back the fun in reading and not feel like I’m missing something when I dislike a popular book.
Do you feel book blogging pressure? Do you feel the need to read ‘current’ ‘popular’ books? Please feel free to leave a comment.